Fingers crossed!

For weeks I've been waiting for Connor's appointment with the specialist and now the day has finally arrived and my heart is in my mouth.  I'm trying to push the idea of a medical deferrment to the darkest recesses of my mind, but it's not happening too easily.  His foot appears to be seriously and significantly damaged which isn't a problem per se, except it all depends on whether or not it can be fixed to an adequate standard and how long recovery is likely to take.  My fear is that today will only lead to further investigation and that no final decision will be made.  I pray instead that we will discover that all this time we have been considering the worst case scenario and that all will be well.  Fingers crossed!